wednesday

i arrived in san diego today. it's very strange here, and very quiet.

everyone who i talk to keeps saying that they've been trying to avoid calling because they think it would be too much. it isn't too much. maybe that's why no one is calling. it's so strange to be in silence like this. the only thing that breaks through every so often is a thought of pete.

i was eating a burger yesterday, and couldn't get away from this picture that i have in my head of him eating some kind of messy sandwich. i don't even know when it was, but he had his face in it and the juice was running down his hands. he was a complete mess.

i got his tattoo yesterday. he traveled through southeast asia almost two years ago and got a tattoo in thailand. it was a thai phrase that is sort of hard to translate into english, but it basically means to strive for and to get all together. it's the way the pete lived his life and the way that i live mine. so now it's my motto and on my arm so it can be close to my heart.